I never asked for this.

But then again, neither did you.

Maybe no one will ever come to understand me,
because half the time I don't understand myself.

I just do, what I know needs to be done.
I cant give you reasons, because I don't have them.
Just feelings.

Even then I'm confused.
I don't understand this.
I don't understand you.

I walked from one fortress to another.
I'm so sick.
And so tired.

But none of the keys fit.
I'm ready to lay in the grass and give up.
I thought that's what I had been doing all along.
But I don't think so.

Too much rain in paradise.
And I broke my umbrella with the last storm.








And for you,
It's not what you think.
But I'm glad the main point is sinking in.
Much better off now.
Because every time I come back in,
everything fucks up.

I never wanted to say goodbye
But I am now.
Not because it's what I want.
Not because it's what you want.
But because it's the right thing to do.