Hello. My world has gone dark.

Pull yourself together,
So that you can pull me together.

Care about yourself, so that I may too.

Build a house.
A home.

Save me.

I was a landscape in your dream.

What kind of labyrinth is this.

You haunt my dreams.
Your eyes alight, touch soft.
Putting the spark back into my heart.

That warm comfort
Illusion.

My thoughts bring me only your dark eyes.
Whispers.
Of a love lost.

Let me cry myself to sleep one last time.

I can't seem to find the words
To tell you what I'm holding on to.
To tell you why I can't let go.
I can't find the words.

I want to be near you.
So that I don't have to say a word.
I want to see you.
Just so I can remember.
I want to hear your voice.
Just for the melody.

I was never good at asking for things.

Just tell me everything will be okay.



I want to be where you are.

Darkest Dream

Distance versus time.
cutting versus down to size

Focus versus tears
versus how did I get here's
Versus curses in your eyes


There's a fire starting starting here
Versus there's nothing to fear
versus lonely
versus safe

Love versus shame.

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You're haunting my thoughts.
You're haunting my dreams.

I can't seem to get you out.
I can't seem to get you in.

I shouldn't be thinking like this.

What did we do.
Where did we go wrong
Why am I figuring it all out now.

I'm being pushed back.

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You shattered me perfectly
Completely.

How did it look to watch my heart shatter before your eyes?

It's like ruby shards falling through the night sky, mingled with the crystals of your tears.

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Destroy me this way.

I'm laying.
I'm falling.
I'm empty.

It's dark.

I'm happy.
I won't speak.

This is everything I wanted.
My worst nightmare.

Thoughts of you filter through my mind.
Things that were.
Things that are.
Things that could have been.
Things that were never possible.

Get out of my head.
Get out of my head.

I won't regret a moment.
Be happy.
Be strong.

Lovers that have never met.

Dark skies and fading lights.
Swallow me whole and spit me back up.
So I can wallow in this filth.
And remember what I am.

Not fair

Oh he treats me with respect
He say's he loves me all the time
He calls me fifteen times a day
he likes to make sure that I'm fine

you know i've never met a man
who's made me feel quite so secure
he not like all them other boys
they're all so dumb and immature

theres just one thing that getting in the way
When we go up to bed
you're just not good it's such a shame

I look into your eyes.
I want to get to know you
and then you make this noise and it's apparent that it's over

Its not fair and I think your really mean
I think your really mean,
I think your really mean.

Oh you're supposed to care but you never make me scream
You never make me scream

Oh it's not fair and it's really not okay
It's really not okay
It's really not okay

Oh you're supposed to care but all you do is take
Yeah all you do is take

Oh, I lie here in the wet patch in the middle of the bed
I'm feeling pretty damn hard done by
I spent ages giving head

And then I remember all the nice things
that you've said to me
Maybe I'm just overreacting
maybe you're the one for me.

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Hi. I'm not you. I don't want you to feel bad for me.
I'm sorry I don't sit all day and devise ways to make people feel such things.
I'm not playing a game.
I played your game and I'm tired of it.
I can't be smothered in a never changing world.
Change doesn't mean feelings change.
Maybe if we did something different you would have figured that part out.

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On another note completely, I still won't ever forget you.
I promised, I'd never say it if I never thought it was false.
You're much better then anything I deserve.
And I'm positive I'll kick myself in the ass for it one day.

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I wanna make you scream
I wanna braid your hair
I wanna kiss your friends.

I wanna crash you're car
I wanna scratch your cheeks
I wanna make you sick.

I knew you couldn't deal with the ugly in me.
I knew you'd just stand there and hope.
I knew you could never actually do anything about it.
Such a shame.