Love will never tear us apart.

I hate that I am doing this,
I hate even more that I feel like I have to.
I wish I had the words to explain to you, why it has to be like this,
Right now.

You have told me that if you leave, you will be gone for good.
And I told you I understood
But I don't.
I don't think you will be, somewhere I think I know that.
And if it's false, then I just can't bring myself to believe it.

I may be walking myself into a trap,
But if I can hold off the pain now,
who is to say I won't be able to hold it off for longer?

I'm such a selfish thing.

We have something so special between us,
Yes Michael, I am talking about you.
But you deserve to have all of me, not the shattered pieces that I am now.

I wish I could ask for help with this,
But I can't, and I won't because I know, right now,
I am the only person that can start putting me back together.
After that, well, I don't know.

There will never be a good-bye for us.
This I know, I can feel it, deep inside of me.
Just a good-bye for now.

I wish I had a crystal ball, so I could show you, everything that I know.
So I could show you, how this is going to work,
So I could show you why we, why I need this.
I wish I could show you, how this is a good thing, disguised quite well.

"Your not good enough for him"
I knew this, from the moment we met, I didn't need to be told.
I was, and I know it's true
I only wish you could have seen it.
I wish you could have seen the filth in me.
But I just can't bear to show you,
Not now.

And even, if I am luring myself, into a false sense.
I know, that I will always have you in my heart.
That I will never be able to let go of.
I have given you, everything that I can right now.
I know it's not enough, broken girls should not try to do such things.

I will, one day, be able to give you everything I have.
Everything that is me.
But that day, is not now.

Just know, that no matter what, I will love you.
Always, and forever.
Just like I promised.