Fuuuuuck.

I wish I knew why my heart has been breaking in two.

Before I even made any decisions.

I wish I knew why I felt like this,
I wish I had answers for you.

I never wanted it to be like this.
I never wanted to hurt you.

But this has gone too far,
I feel like I'm drowning, like I'm being suffocated and smothered
All at the same time.

I can't do this right now, I'm sorry I didn't have things as figured out as you thought I did
I'm sorry I couldn't be the one to fix everything for you.

I wish I knew what was wrong with me.