My face feels red,

And my heart beats just a little faster.

I have more pain inside of me, than you could ever imagine.

These questions, your slowly breaking inside of me.
So why am I still building?

I don't know how I am supposed to compromise.
We spend some time together, but how much is enough?
Maybe you don't need your alone time.
But I thrive off of mine.

Yes thrive. Its my own little space, where I sit and just be.
I just want to be able to have a little of my own space.
Some time where I can sit, and do whatever I feel like doing, without being guilty about it.
That's why it feels like this. Because I shouldn't feel guilty, for wanting some time to myself.
Its completely normal.
I know how unhealthy it is, no have no time to yourself. If you think things are bad now, imagine them worse.

If you take that away, you might as well just take away my very existence.

You shouldn't feel bad about this either, and you do I can tell.
And because you feel bad about this, I can tell that you also really don't understand, no matter how hard you are trying to.

You ask me, why its not the same as when we first met.
It's because then, I had my time, free of guilt. To do what I wanted.
To just be.

I'm trying, to keep both of us happy here.
Yes both of us.
And if it's not making you happy I wish you would tell me.
I don't want you to stay with me if you not happy, I don't care how much you hate being alone, you should never ever stay with someone who is making you miserable.

I bet you wish you never told me to be myself.